Being in the middle of an international adoption has brought a lot of revelation to the surface as the Holy Spirit speaks in these situations. Over the next weeks, I want to write specifically on these facets of orphan thinking and encourage all of us to reach deeper for the mind of Christ and the true offer of sonship.
The first time it happened we were still in Japan. After we left Osaka so that we could return to Tokyo and finish up final interviews and paperwork, we came back to the Christian hostel we had stayed in previously and settled in.
I don’t remember the exact circumstances surrounding the incident, but I remember the abject horror on Mizuki’s face and the tears and wailing. He had it in his head that we were leaving him and we couldn’t make him understand otherwise.
We tried to console and hold him. We tried the translator on our phone. We tried to bribe him with food. He was convinced that we were leaving and he was not going with us.
This being the first of these sort of meltdowns, I just marveled. I thought about the hours of prayer along with the seemingly endless hours of paperwork. We raised funds and put in everything we had of our own in there. We went to Japan in faith and had to stand in all sorts of situations simply looking to God for answers and support.
“Do you understand what I had to do to get here? Do you understand the price that was paid? You’re crazy if you think I’m letting you out of my sight.”
As all this passed through my mind, I realized the Father feels this infinitely more.
How many times do we let this sort of thinking rule our decision-making in our Christian life? We get excited about what God is doing. He took us out of our old circumstances and offers something better, but when we fail to understand the process at a given moment, we come unglued.
We knew He was just going to leave us. We knew all along that He wasn’t really going to take us all the way into breakthrough.
I have to believe the Father must be wondering what else He can do to prove His love.
“I gave you life and breath. I provide for you–everything you need. Remember the price I paid to have you with me? Why would I leave you even for a second?”
John 3:16 is probably the most known scripture in all of humanity, yet its truth has largely escaped us.
16 “For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life. 17 For God did not send the Son into the world to judge the world, but that the world might be saved through Him.
There are thousands upon ten thousands that are essentially taught that God’s love for His people is finite. If we go too far, He drops us at the curb and says, “I really wish you could’ve done better. I’m leaving ” But the reality is that most struggle with that kind of concept because their earthly fathers (in some form or fashion) did that to them.
It would be nice to say that my son is already past these fears of abandonment, but we’re still working through them. Little by little, he’s understanding though. The more he understands, the more fearless he’ll be.
A Church living in fear is one that is weak and ineffective. Having that strong sense of place and position in the Father’s house gives us a boldness that we need and fearlessness to do the impossible.
Allow Him to settle it in your heart and mind now. He’s never going to leave or forsake you. He’s invested so much time, effort, and resources into bringing you home that there is nothing that could persuade Him you’re not worth seeing through to completion.
What do you think about this? Do you live under this fear or are you living fearlessly for Him?