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God Doesn’t Want That

It’s easy to do. We get turned sideways. Those whispers in your mind start. You feel guilty and sometimes worthless. It all leads to one conclusion: God doesn’t want that.

We convince ourselves that God wants the good parts, the whole parts. The ones that are broken, misshapen, and messy? We need to fix those before we can turn them over.

There’s lust. Those intense fears and anxiety. That tendency to be emotionally distant from your family. I don’t know what your broken area may be exactly, but rest assured you have one. And rest assured until it’s not broken anymore, we’ll probably be trying to hide it or fix it ourselves.

We are always taught to put our best foot forward and make a good impression. I don’t know if you can hear God laughing right now, but He knows our innermost thoughts and feelings, He knows the biggest blunders and failures. Because of love and grace, He offers a safe place to relinquish all of it.

Paul equates this “trying to fix ourselves” concept to being under a spell.

You foolish Galatians! Who has bewitched you? Before your very eyes Jesus Christ was clearly portrayed as crucified. 2I would like to learn just one thing from you: Did you receive the Spirit by observing the law, or by believing what you heard? 3Are you so foolish? After beginning with the Spirit, are you now trying to attain your goal by human effort? 4Have you suffered so much for nothing–if it really was for nothing? 5Does God give you his Spirit and work miracles among you because you observe the law, or because you believe what you heard? (Galatians 3:1-4)

As a dad, I can testify that when my kids try to fix something and they don’t even understand how it operates, it ends badly. If they had brought it to me, then I could have looked at it and helped them effectively. That would have been a pleasure and joy for me!

I try to remember this as I’m so determined to hold back the brokenness. He is my Father. He knows how this whole thing (from my life to my destiny) is put together. He takes joy in restoring me. Thankfully too, our Father is always able to mend the brokenness, even when we’ve made it worse by trying to fix it ourselves.

Maybe you’re feeling this way today. You’re tired of the broken areas, but you’re even more tired of trying to take care of it on your own.  We begin to heal as we believe what He has said and trust in His unfailing love.

My messiness and brokenness? God does want that, and He wants to use it for His glory.

Do you find yourself struggling with this at times? What helps you remember that He loves and wants every part of us?

23 Comments

  1. Sometimes I do struggle with this… When it happens it is usually because I start judging myself based on man’s understanding instead of with the eyes of God. God sees more in us than we could ever see for ourselves. He understands our hidden potentials and our unlimited potential in Him.

    In these moments I turn to the stories narrated in Scripture of the people (and animals) who were used by God.
    Dusty Rayburn recently posted..DeeperMy Profile

    • Ha! That’s perfect Dusty-yes, the people and animals. :)

      I think we forget that God sees (and declares) the end from the beginning. He sees us as restored, whole, adopted, etc. What a powerful revelation that I need more of!

      Thanks.

  2. This is something that I’ve been dealing with. I just read Messy Spirituality & Permission to Speak Freely. Both dealt with this and it really helped.
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    • I’m sure I’d get a lot from those books then. Every time I think I have a handle on this, it comes back and I realize, “you’re doing it again.”

      Thanks Michael.

  3. There’s a line from a song on one of my favorite CDs from the International House of Prayer in Kansas City that does it for me:

    “Even in my weakness, I am lovely.”
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    • Perfect, Sarah! I know and have even experienced (over and over) that His power is perfected in my weakness. All this seems like a no-brainer, but I still struggle.

      Thank you.

  4. I think your post is the toughest today for me. I really don’t understand what is happening. If you would know what I heard last weekend you would think I’m doing great. The encouragements and challenges from the church. But I’m a mess. I’m confused and I don’t know why. There are moments that I do feel good but than when I sit down it creeps all up. I’m feeling worthless because of what people told me and how they see me. Most of the time I don’t care what people think. Well, only the ones who are close to me. But there is this weak moment and right there they question me why God hasn’t moved on with me? Why I don’t have a job yet? They do this all the time. I do pray and God did make some things clear to me but He doesn’t work by my schedule he works by His own. And sometimes I think He should move this way but He decides to go the other way. His way. The best way. I’m so grateful that the Holy Spirit is there to help. I thought about it and looked for an answer. This is the answer I got. For the world I might be worthless but for Him I’m priceless. All this mess He can use for His glory.

    I don’t know if I make any sense here.

    • You make perfect sense, Ani. It’s hard enough when we’re struggling on the inside with our worth and trying to fix/hide the broken. When people pile on to that their own opinions, it breaks us down in a whole new way. They may be trying to express concern, but it’s just an unproductive way to do it.

      You’re right though. Listen to the Holy Spirit and the voice of your Father. He is the one who holds it all together and will bring you to the place of fulfillment.

      Praying for you today that He will show you the steps and pour out a greater grace to deal with every situation and every attack. You are loved and valued.

      • I just want to say one thing and then I’m off line. Justin, thank. you. so. much. I know you go through a rough time but you are so blessing me with this. I’m so sorry. Tears are coming up writing this. You know I pray for you and your family and your ministry, church and town. Will continue to do that. Can I say “I love you all”? I just want to stand on the roof of my house and shout to the world that I love you all.

        • This is what it’s all about, Ani! Living in encouragement of one another. Being real with where we are and believing for bigger things. Thank you for your prayers and thank you for being a part of this community!

  5. Yes, I do struggle with this, too. Lately, though, I have been thinking of the tiny universes in our cells, then in our cells’ nucleui, and so on… He knows the tiniest detail about me. He created all these intricacies. Surely He is better able to fix me than I am when I break myself.
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    • Amen to that, Helen. He sees the unseen. We look at the outside (even of our problems and shortcomings) and He looks on the heart. He addresses the real issues if we let Him. Thanks.

  6. I struggled to comment today. Sometimes I feel like I repeat myself too often and bore people to death. But since you asked…

    Denial and avoidance have been my MO. But the funny thing is that when I sit and think about it, I know that God loves me just the way I am. So, it’s frustrating when my actions (or lack thereof) contradict that knowledge. The most important revelation I’ve had recently is the one I shared here last week. And I had to receive that for somebody else before I could partake of it myself. But the revelation was that God created me, lovingly and painstakingly, in His hands.
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    • I repeat the same things over and over with this blog as I work through. You are not alone, Sarah! Whatever God is showing you, you are welcome and encouraged to share it here. I believe God will use all the words (posts & comments) to show His love to those in need.

      Thank you.

  7. If we could only wrap our minds around the thought that God wants our broken stuff — really want it — we would have more joy. That’s what I want. More joy. Real kind in my heart, not just my head. Wonderful post mixed with humanity and spiritual truths, Jason!

    • Thank you, Bonnie. I want that joy too.

  8. I think we can learn from the Prodigal Son(s) parable that God wants it all. In fact, we can be covered in “pig slop” and when we come to our senses and turn towards the Father, he will come running to us. He’ll be carrying shoes, new clothes, and a ring to solidify our status with Him…forgiven.

    Yes…he wants it all. Thanks for sharing the truth and power of His love Jason!

    • Maybe we just need to read that parable every day! I love that it says when the son “was a long way off” that the Father started running to him. What a powerful image that is and what a wonderful Father we have. Thanks Jay.

    • Oh wow! Wow! Thank you!

  9. Jason: you know…as a pastor everybody seems to think that we have it all together. If they only knew… they may just up a fire us! It is such a fine line for us to know how much to say and when we say too much. I HAVE to bring my brokenness to God. I have nothing else to give.
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    • Yeah, I’ve been walking that line of trying to be honest without trying to be discouraging. I always come back to a place of trust, but if all someone focuses on is my struggle and they get disheartened then it’s not worth sharing. I believe we definitely have to be careful, and yes, there are plenty of reasons I should be fired. :)

      Thanks Bill. Good to see you around these parts again!

  10. I recently learned that God DOES want the broken in us. In fact, it blesses Him when we reach out for His help. I didn’t know this until I had been knocked down by life so many times until I couldn’t get back up.

    It was then… I prayed.

    And I realized God wants those parts of me too. Good thoughts, Bro!

    • That is an important and powerful revelation for sure. Thanks DS.