God Doesn’t Want That
It’s easy to do. We get turned sideways. Those whispers in your mind start. You feel guilty and sometimes worthless. It all leads to one conclusion: God doesn’t want that.
We convince ourselves that God wants the good parts, the whole parts. The ones that are broken, misshapen, and messy? We need to fix those before we can turn them over.
There’s lust. Those intense fears and anxiety. That tendency to be emotionally distant from your family. I don’t know what your broken area may be exactly, but rest assured you have one. And rest assured until it’s not broken anymore, we’ll probably be trying to hide it or fix it ourselves.
We are always taught to put our best foot forward and make a good impression. I don’t know if you can hear God laughing right now, but He knows our innermost thoughts and feelings, He knows the biggest blunders and failures. Because of love and grace, He offers a safe place to relinquish all of it.
Paul equates this “trying to fix ourselves” concept to being under a spell.
You foolish Galatians! Who has bewitched you? Before your very eyes Jesus Christ was clearly portrayed as crucified. 2I would like to learn just one thing from you: Did you receive the Spirit by observing the law, or by believing what you heard? 3Are you so foolish? After beginning with the Spirit, are you now trying to attain your goal by human effort? 4Have you suffered so much for nothing–if it really was for nothing? 5Does God give you his Spirit and work miracles among you because you observe the law, or because you believe what you heard? (Galatians 3:1-4)
As a dad, I can testify that when my kids try to fix something and they don’t even understand how it operates, it ends badly. If they had brought it to me, then I could have looked at it and helped them effectively. That would have been a pleasure and joy for me!
I try to remember this as I’m so determined to hold back the brokenness. He is my Father. He knows how this whole thing (from my life to my destiny) is put together. He takes joy in restoring me. Thankfully too, our Father is always able to mend the brokenness, even when we’ve made it worse by trying to fix it ourselves.
Maybe you’re feeling this way today. You’re tired of the broken areas, but you’re even more tired of trying to take care of it on your own. We begin to heal as we believe what He has said and trust in His unfailing love.
My messiness and brokenness? God does want that, and He wants to use it for His glory.
Do you find yourself struggling with this at times? What helps you remember that He loves and wants every part of us?