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Living Two Places at Once


I’ve had the opportunity on several occasions to visit the Four Corners Monument where New Mexico, Arizona, Colorado, and Utah meet. It’s certainly fun to spread yourself out over the lines and be in all these places “at once.”

Of course, the reality is that it isn’t quite true. You aren’t able to be in two or more places at once outside your own limited physical space. You can tell yourself you’re doing it, but it’s not happening.

The same is true in our relationship with God. We can often lie to ourselves and say we’re trusting God while our hearts are full of unhealed pain and accusations against God. You may feel like you can straddle the line of seeing God’s goodness and hiding your brokenness, but it inevitably comes to light.

Our hearts can either be guarded from God in doubt and distrust, or peace will guard our hearts through relationship as we abide in Christ…

Although you can never be separated from the love of God, you can definitely live like you are. And because perception can determine your spiritual reality, if your heart is shielding itself from God and His love, then you’re going to have a hard time experiencing and hearing the very One you’re trying to push away.  –Christa Black Gifford, Heart Made Whole

As Christa points out later, Proverbs 4:23 admonishes us to guard your heart but in our pain, we can easily translate that into guarding our hearts from God as well. It can be an unconscious decision many times, and I’m certainly guilty.

You’ve been hurt, betrayed, accused, lied to, or any number of scenarios. Your heart feels trampled and raw, and the goodness of God conveyed throughout scripture begins to feel like an ethereal mist that disappears as soon as you get near it. You begin to close off.

This is what we have to remember: being closed off to God means being closed off to healing.

He wants to guard your heart with you. Yes, painful things will still happen, but when the Physician is living in your space, the wounds don’t fester and get infected. Pain and treatment happen near simultaneously. Think of the beauty!

It’s going to take some honesty though. Are you living disappointed in God or doubting His goodness? Are you harboring pain while denying access to your Healer?

If you feel stuck and tied more closely to distrust than His perfect peace, today is the day to begin dealing with it. It will get messy. It may feel uncomfortable, but God is not afraid of your pain or whatever emotions they stir. Though you may be, He is unafraid of the process.

You may feel torn, like you’re living in two places at once, but your Father longs to bring you into wholeness and restoration.

What are your thoughts on this? When you get hurt, do you struggle with closing off? How have you experienced any of this in your own life?

hmwWelcome to week 3 of our book club discussion of Heart Made Whole by Christa Black GiffordWe are taking a sentence, paragraph, or passage that inspires, encourages, or challenges and writing about it. If you have a response on your blog, add your link to the widget at my friend and co-facilitator, Sarah Salter’s place. Whether you’ve read the chapter or not, feel free to dive into the conversation!


  1. Great post, made me think of this….

    “I will give them a heart to know Me, for I am the LORD; and they will be My people, and I will be their God, for they will return to Me with their whole heart.” Jeremiah 24:7

    The temptation to settle for something less than God’s best for you is a loud one…it is good to know who has our heart. Thanks brother!
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    • Yes, love it! I want wholeness, but even more than that, He wants wholeness for me (as evidenced by the gift of Jesus’ sacrifice and the sending of the Holy Spirit). Great thoughts, Jay. Thank you!

  2. God recently convicted me of this. I had my feelings hurt by the same person (AGAIN) and I asked God if I could walk away and not associated with that person again. I was willing to forgive, but I wanted to protect myself rom further pain. God asked me where I would be if He shut me out after all the times I had hurt Him. OUCH

    Jesus said 70x7. Not just to forgive but to remain open to further pain.

    We might get hurt, but if we take it to God He is big enough to carry us through. HE can help us, if we will turn to Him.

    • It’s such a fine line and one in which we need the voice of the Holy Spirit. Glad you’re listening. This is what I want as well. Our God is well able to carry, heal, and restore as we trust Him. Thanks so much, TC.

  3. If I’m learning anything from this book discussion, Jason, is that we can never close off our heart to God, the only One who can walk through the muck and mire with us, the only One who can heal our broken hearts.
    Such a thoughtful reflection you have shared with us today, my brother.
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    • I appreciate that, Martha. Yes, He can and will heal our broken hearts. I just wish I were aware of all the times I was holding Him back when He was ready to do more. Sobering thought. Thanks so much.

  4. When you are in a relationship with God, it’s nearly impossible to close it off. He is the Potter, and we are the clay. Seriously, He is able to find even the microscopical of all cracks. Getting hurt is never easy, but knowing God has a plan in the works, you know you are in a winning situation!

    • Always best to stay with our gracious Father! Thanks Ed.

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