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Sure, I Can Carry That

Several weeks ago, I was being eaten alive by my own choices. I didn’t fall into some horrible sin. I didn’t decide to walk away from God. All I was attempting to do was carry something.

For those wondering, I don’t mean a physical carrying. I mean a spiritual one, and on the surface, it made sense. There is a horrible situation that affects people I love very much based on some incomprehensible (at least to me) decisions made by one of these people, and I felt the intense weight of the whole thing. What’s the big deal if I want to carry this?

For one thing, I was mentally anguished and irritable most of the time. Besides that, I found myself with constant back pain. I went to the chiropractor, had a massage–relief never lasted longer than thirty minutes. I woke up and went to sleep with it. I also had breakouts on my face to the point I started to feel like a teenager again (you know, the part none of us liked).

It was all under the premise that I was helping and standing for these people who desperately need a touch from heaven. The truth is I was beyond stressed.

That all changed when I was jogging one day, listening to a sermon. God interrupted my thoughts by speaking to me, “You don’t have the right to carry this.”

Yeah, it sounded and felt exactly like a rebuke. I stopped in my tracks and repented right there. I don’t know if it was immediately, but soon after my back pain left (and hasn’t returned) and my face completely cleared up. My mental and emotional state is better too. I realized that I couldn’t change the situation or the person I was concerned for. The only thing I could control was my response.

I had to choose to forgive this person. Then I could pick back up the life and awakening that He has called me to carry.

Matthew 11:28-30 is probably very familiar to you,

“Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”

It’s His yoke. He invited you and me to it. We can’t carry whatever we want to carry, however we want to carry it. It may look spiritual, but it’s deadly to our health in every sense of the word.

It may not be easy to walk where He has for you to walk sometimes, but He is carrying it with you. To walk in His yoke, we have to come to Him. When we go our own way, we suffer through trying to carry the weight and stress by ourselves and it affects us in big and small ways.

You aren’t your own–you’ve been bought with a price (1 Corinthians 6:19-20). You aren’t like everyone else in the world. You aren’t allowed to stay upset and obsess about whatever you want to. You have something to carry. It’s a word of life and truth. It’s a message of hope and forgiveness. You walk in peace and reveal His rest.

You may think you have every right to carry that thing, but you would be wrong just like I was. The good news is repentance is quick and powerful. We return to what will really affect the world, change situations, and turn people’s hearts–living the truth and light of the Gospel in the love of Christ.

That’s the miracle I’m standing for now, and I know it’s where I’m called to stand.

What do you think? Have you felt the effects of carrying something you were not supposed to carry?

24 Comments

  1. A lot of this post spoke to me directly, but the following screamed:

    You aren’t like everyone else in the world. You aren’t allowed to stay upset and obsess about whatever you want to. You have something to carry. It’s a word of life and truth. It’s a message of hope and forgiveness. You walk in peace and reveal His rest.

    All I can say is, AMEN.
    Dusty Rayburn recently posted..The Strength of Our LifeMy Profile

    • Dusty, this is convicting me and pushing me so much right now. I’m so thankful for this grace and the power of the Holy Spirit working. Thanks so much.

  2. Jason, I thought of this Scripture while reading your post.

    “and in the wilderness, where you have seen how the LORD your God carried you, as a man carries his son, all the way that you went until you came to this place.” Deuteronomy 1:31

    I’m there now…I need to drop something I’ve been carrying (it was for a season) that is not for me to carry any longer. I’ve been unwilling to do so because of what people may think (fear of man stuff). Thanks for giving me more to pray about!
    Jay Cookingham recently posted..With Burning Hearts – Guest PostMy Profile

    • That’s a great addition--those things we were meant to carry for a season but now we have to let go. We think we have rights to keep going with it, but it’s not ours and it messes us up. Thanks Jay. Great scripture and praying with you as always! :)

  3. Yes sir I believe every Christian will have this feeling. I had this feeling earlier in the year. With my photography brand, you see last year in 2011 I had some meetings with a business “guru” and without seeking God I did everything he told me. He gave me my business name and branding etc. I can tell you with a humble heart it tanked right away. So fast forward to November and the great earthquake we experienced at conference. The Lord started to speak to me about 2012 will be a year of fulfillment and stepping into your destiny. In late February The Lord spoke to me again and said untangle yourself from that brand cause your lying, (The name was Singh Studio and I didn’t have studio space) . So I gave it to him and every since then I sought him out in every detail from branding to ads etc.
    andrew singh recently posted..Christmas-Winterland Photo ExtravaganzaMy Profile

    • I love how He brings us back under His covering and onto His path. Always makes me wish I had just asked Him the first time! Your story is a great illustration of my point. Thanks so much, Andrew.

  4. Get out of my head. :)

    • I don’t think I would make it in there, Philip. I don’t know how I live in mine. Scratch that--only grace. :)

  5. Funny, some of the things God had gently helped me set down, I decided to pick back up the last few days. I’m justified in that the people I’m dealing with are crooks and thieves, but it’s not my fight, it’s God’s fight. You’re right, my job is to carry His truth. Period.

    The legal options I’ve been wrestling with I need to lay down… Thanks for being used of God to share the truth that all of us need to hear today, whether we know it or not.

    Thanks man.
    floyd recently posted..A TEST RUNMy Profile

    • I marvel at how God speaks to us in a variety of ways and through different people. I’m humbled to be a part of your life and thankful that we can encourage one another. Thank you, Floyd.

  6. I have to remind myself, Jason, that it is not my job to fix everyone. Or anyone for that matter. I get to thinking (and carrying) the thought, “You know, if you would do it this way then it would work out better” or “if you would only apologize then it would be such a better scenario.” have one of the latter right now. but it is not my job to fix anyone or anything. It is HIS. You have stated a biblical approach by repenting and moving on. Thanks for the honesty and example.
    bill (cycleguy) recently posted..CatchUpMy Profile

    • I’m thankful for the kindness that led me to repentance and the grace that flows there. Why is it so hard to remember these things?! Thanks for the encouragement, Bill. Much appreciated.

  7. Hmmm. Yep. Sounds familiar!

    Good timing with this one, Mr. Stasyszen!

    :)

    • Is it sad that I’m happy I’m not the only one going through this stuff? :) Glad we can all encourage one another! Thanks Angi.

  8. I can relate, too often I find that I am carrying stuff I shouldn’t be. Often I don’t even realize I’m doing it!

    Lately I’ve been realizing that I can’t REST in God’s promises if I’m still trying to control everything. Rest implies letting go of control and trusting that God has everything under control. Simple concept yet so hard sometimes to actually do. Thankfully God is working with me on this and showing me when I am not resting. It is such a blessing lean on Him and to have Him teach me!

    Loved this line, “You aren’t allowed to stay upset and obsess about whatever you want to”!
    TC Avey recently posted..The Life of Bonhoeffer-Preparation for SeriesMy Profile

    • Yep, trying to control or manipulate people or situations is counterproductive and ungodly. So much better to trust our good and perfect heavenly Father! Thank you so much, TC.

  9. I’ve had periods this year where I became tired of carrying everybody else’s load on top of my own. Finally it got to a point where I said “enough!” Burdens should come easily and go just as easy. I think the problem is that we so often get caught up in the “Me!” dilemma that we simply don’t have the faith to understand and believe that whatever situation we may find outselves in is only temporary.
    Ed recently posted..EncouragementMy Profile

    • We fix our eyes not on the seen which is temporary but on the unseen, that which is eternal. Paul was one wise man. He endured his own minor, light afflictions and looked ahead toward glory and his words are encouraging us still today because of the power of the Holy Spirit behind them. Thanks Ed.

  10. It hardly seems fair when someone “reads my mail” so deeply and thoroughly. I’ll have to read this post over a few more times and let it soak in but I’ve been carrying the heaviest load EVER these past few weeks. Ugh.
    Melinda Lancaster recently posted..Silent praiseMy Profile

    • These are my real experiences so I’m glad my pains can benefit others! Thanks so much, Melinda. Blessings to you.

  11. this really spoke to my heart and spirit. throughout my relationship with Jesus, He has shown me that anything I carry to the cross and lay at His feet must be left there. I can’t pick it back up and continue to carry it on. Whether it is regarding something I am going through or something someone else is going through and has asked me to pray for, it isn’t for ME to carry once I bring it to Him to take care of. The power to change circumstances comes from Him, not myself. I am limited but Jesus isn’t. Although I have a very strong relationship of faith with Jesus, I still need to be reminded occasionally that He is in control, not me! And when I try to fix things myself in my own power, I hit a wall because the biggest stumbling block to things getting worked out is ME!

    • The cross is a horrific place made beautiful. We bring all our shortcomings, failures, selfishness, sins, and iniguities and He pours out life. It all comes back to the cross--and it’s always powerful. Thank you, Karen.

  12. Great post…my husband and I always have to come back to that truth, we cannot fix things. No matter how much they hurt us, others, we cannot fix it. Every time we try to carry someone else load we get weighed down to the point of exhaustion. Great post my brother. Blessings

    • We can carry things for others in Him, but it’s entirely different than how I would carry it myself or in my own understanding. You’re so right, Betty. Trying to fix people, situations, or circumstances can just leave us exhausted. Thanks so much for your comment.