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Where Do I Belong?

familyI’m currently sitting in the Dallas-Fort Worth airport with my family as we’re waiting for a flight to take us to Alaska for Christmas. It’s been nearly six months since we packed it all up and headed out from home, family, friends, and congregation in Juneau to head to Oklahoma.

I have a strange feeling like its only been a few days since we were there and then it also feels like it’s been years (I think that makes sense). I grew up in Oklahoma so coming back did feel like home, but Juneau was and is also home.

I’ve loved, lived, cried, laughed, invested, experienced God, experienced pain and loss, and much more in both places; but the strange thing is, neither place fully feels like home now because neither one can fully embody the other.

So does that leave me without a place to belong? In some ways, I think it does, but there’s more to it. When I left Oklahoma in 2001-2002, it was God’s direction. When I left Alaska, it was God’s direction.

I’m seeing that God loves us to be close to family, to feel a sense of belonging, but it’s not enough. He wants us to fully rely on Him and know Him. Not that I’m comparing myself to Him, but the author of Hebrews words about Abraham feel much more real now.

By faith he lived as an alien in the land of promise, as in a foreign land, dwelling in tents with Isaac and Jacob, fellow heirs of the same promise; for he was looking for the city which has foundations, whose architect and builder is God. –Hebrews 11:9-10

I am exactly where God has for me and I feel like an alien and stranger. It’s okay though. There’s another city that means so much more to me, and Revelation 21:1-3 lets us know that the City of God is the very Bride of Christ.

Anywhere I am, I belong because I am in the Body. By faith.

How about you? Where are you spending Christmas? Where do you feel most at home?


  1. I think we should never really feel “comfortable”. We should always feel a little out of place, discomforted and strange. We dont belong here -- in Alaska or Oklahoma or Texas or anywhere USA/World. I love an old Randy Stonehill song. “Keep Me Running”
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    • Just wrote about comfort & discomfort on my blog this past week, David. Tried to get at what you said in one sentence, the idea that we should always feel some discomfort & a little out of place. Also feel like we need to always have some comfort too. It’s a balance & that balance is unique to the individual.
      Kari Scare recently posted..“Life begins at the end of your comfort zone.”My Profile

      • Recognizing that the feeling of being out of place is not such a bad thing is good for us--can be comforting in itself to a degree. All I know is, our God is the Comforter, now and always! Thanks Kari.

    • That’s what I’m thinking. There are people that make me feel home, but it’s just as much about God’s presence and life than it is about any location. Thanks David.

  2. I agree with David. It’s difficult to be completely satisfied living as aliens. Good for you that you get to go back for a white Christmas. Praying for a safe and enjoyable trip. We’ll be at home, or our temporary home I should say!

    • I’m with you, Floyd; and thank you for the prayers! Blessings to you and yours this Christmas. 🙂

  3. My house feels most like home for me, because I’ve gone to great lengths to make it a place where i can and do encounter God, but the town I live in doesn’t really feel like home. It’s weird too because every time I take a trip to Czech and land in hue country, my first thoughts…I’m home. God may be saying something in that!
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    • I have had similar experiences in two countries I’ve visited: Japan and Turkey. I don’t know if I’ll ever actually live in either, but it’s incredible what the Holy Spirit does in us. In fact, Juneau was a place I wouldn’t have considered living in before God provided the grace. Anyway, interesting thoughts! Thanks Jason.

  4. We will have most of our family at our house for Christmas, the young ones, at least, but I will miss not having my mom and dad and my husband’s mom with us on that day. I’ve seen homes, and places I’ve called home, come and go, but, like you, when I know my true home is with God in the eternal, I can adjust and welcome opportunities wherever I find myself.
    May your Christmas be blessed, Jason!
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    • Totally understand, Martha. That’s part of the tension too in finding “home.” We keep losing loved ones that remind us home is elsewhere. Here’s to welcoming those opportunities though. Thank you, Martha.

  5. We will be heading back to Ohio to spend Christmas with our daughter’s family. Home for me is here in Spencer. It was in the town I lived in at that time. My real home is coming.
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    • Have a safe and blessed trip, Bill. As for the other, I figured you would have that same feeling. 🙂 Thanks so much.

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